And then I said...
Dec. 4th, 2002 03:53 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
harahelIt's funny you know. You think you're self confident and all it takes is a side comment to tear you to smithereens. "honey you really should wear a longer shirt" he says. A friend, sort of, i baarely like him, but i have to stay on his good side because he likes revenge. In that moment I wanted to slap him.
I like the way I look. But people in this culture want nothing to do with a girl who won't starve her self thin. I'm not even truly fat. I can't imagine how bad it would be if I was obese. Lucky for me i can keep myself to a size ten/twelve. A normal human size that repells men fastre then an be blamed on my personality.
Gah. Stupid loopy thought process. Won't change my shirt for him. Won't. Won't. Won't. So why do I want to so badly?
I like the way I look. But people in this culture want nothing to do with a girl who won't starve her self thin. I'm not even truly fat. I can't imagine how bad it would be if I was obese. Lucky for me i can keep myself to a size ten/twelve. A normal human size that repells men fastre then an be blamed on my personality.
Gah. Stupid loopy thought process. Won't change my shirt for him. Won't. Won't. Won't. So why do I want to so badly?
